Big Girls Don't Cry

Why do people  have to be assholes...... That is my questione..... You know this Valentines Day was the worst ever ..... yeah I spend it with my friends but it could been better you know..... Why do I say this.... In my skool they do this things called cupids were they send me one from the boy that I like  I got so excited and happy I made my valentines day..... But as the day went by I found that he wasn't the one that send it that it was his friends  send it to me just to mess wit tha6t got me sad and so F..... mad. Can you imagine that the boy that you like send you such a cute thing and later you find out it wasn't him it was his inmature friends trying to mess with him.... What kind of cold hearted person would do such a thing to play with your feelings .... Oh right his friends..... Later that day they start messing with me which got me even mader ahhh inmature I am suposed to be the inmature one.... I tried not to cry when I got home but it was hard between being mad, sad and frustrated its hard not to cry... Even with me saying to myself BIG GIRLS DON"T CRY.... I cried but past is past I will move on and for the futre actully do and remembers that Big Girls Don't Cry.... :

A little bit personal ......

My heart pounds fast when I see you …… My belly wants to explode with all the butterflies inside… When I look at you I want you to tell me that you love me… That the world doesn’t meter….. No meter what they say you still want me by you side….Every day I think of you…. Do you think of me? Do you want me like I want you here is where love shows are not that great at all….. I see you look at me but do you look at me because I AM PASSING BY OR BECAUSE YOU WANT TO LOOK AT ME YOU WHERE LOOKIN FOR ME….. I want you to love me how can I do it?  Do you talk about me like I talk about you? Do you like me…… I want you to like me….. will you…

When is it going to happen ….

You know right know I am saying that love isn’t a fairy tale. But what if it was, what if it was like in the movies. You see a guy, he sees you and your eyes meet and magically you fall in love with him. A few weeks ago I had this very beautiful dream; I was walking down the street and the boy l liked actually talked to me asked me in a date the best thing was that he was really into me and I didn’t work a sweat with him. It all happens so naturally and so perfectly and it felt so real. He asked me to be he’s girl and everything was so perfect like a movie….But a few minutes later the alarm went on  and I woke up and the dream was gone and reality came… I went to school and saw the boy I liked the funny thing is that I like him and we don’t even speak any more I hate that. So during the day I started thinking of that dream I had and if it was going to happen or if it was just another stupid dream. I know that is going to be hard but… I would like for once that when I fall in love it would feel like a fairy tale even though I know love is not a fairy tale. But the real thing is when is going to happen….. I am not that patient you know….

How do You Know....?

How do you know….. How can you tell….. ?  It’s so freaking hard … It’s not like the boy or girl you like comes running to you and tells you  I like you do you want to be with me…  Or gives you hints that she or he likes you ……. Or sometimes it is even worst you like them and that boy or girl is older than you and the friends he or she has start messing with you and make fun of you and when they do that you get mad because you don’t like them to that…. And worst when they do that and the boy or girl you like starts laughing at that …… and you get confused weather he or she likes you ….. Or sees you as a game or a little girl or boy…. I hate hoe movies put love so easy yeah falling in love is easy but actually having the other person love you  is not or knowing  is hard….. That is why I always say Love is not a Fairy tale… <3

Its KinD OF FuNny ( Not ReAlLy)

I think is funny how sometimes you may like somebody and try to impress him and don't know if he or she likes you. While you got other people try to get you to like them calling you and stoking you. You try not to make them feel bad but the truth is you don't want anything to do with that person. You even wonder why every single time the person that you like doesn’t pay attention to you, while the other person you don't want is trying to get your attention by stoking you.I don’t even know why I say it’s kind of funny maybe because if you look at it really close you are going thru the same thing the other person who is stoking you is gong thru even though it is at a lower level of stockiness you think JAJAJA. It’s kind of funny not really! :0

What is it?

Have you ever fallen in love but don't know if the other person feels the same?
Well probably you have and as the days go by the boy or girl makes you feel more in love and start wondering What if? What if you were together? What if he actually likes you? As the days go by you find out the boy or girl likes you. You end up together as the months, mabye years, you get tired; you end up just acting like you are friends; you later on find out he or she cheated on you! You may cry, feel sad and disappointed because you trusted that person. But maybe later you start thinking maybe it was your fault because you dind't show him or her that much love. While at the same time he or she comes running by begging for forgiveness ...... You are confused because this time he or she comes very sad and giving you more love than ever; showing more love than ever; you are very confussed and start wondering: do I give him or her the chance? or what do i do? You ask for time and he or she stays away and dosen't show more love. You start to wonder again was all this for show, did she or he actually wanted me. At the end you ask yourself; is it worth it, WHAT IS IT?

To all the broken hearted

Lets see........
When you see movie do you see a girl or boy falling in love and latter on her or his heart is broken?
maybe.
But the real question is does that girl or boy has to forget the girl or boy no matter what and move on see him fall in love with another girl see him love that other girl?
No! allways at the end of the movie the girl or maybe the boy gets the man or girl she or he wanted and the live happly ever after.... Blah blah blah.... yeah right.
In the REAL LIFE the girl or boy has to forget the boy or girl no matter what. suffer during the process while you see that boy or girl or boy fall in love with another person. It hard to forget and it is even harder when that boy or girl made you think you had a chance. And maybe this losing love thing happens over and over again.
I hate that the movies make love seem like a piece of cake! yeah right. Love is not a fary tale is what I say. But don't confuse me I say love is not a fary tale but love is not impossible.